I hate it when YA authors try to romanticize depression. That isn't okay. Depression isn't romantic or fun. It isn't beautiful when you have a constant battle going on in your head. Depression is the absolute worst. It isn't easy to be in freaking bed not wanting to slink out. It isn't romantic when a friend says the wrong thing and you can't do anything the next day because you're so upset. Thank you for this post. It made my day.
Unfortunately I can't give you that answer, but I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and that your reason will show itself to you one day <3 You will be a stronger person for having experienced it